nightmare began at the end of 1996. At 25 I was what society would
consider healthy. I ate what I thought was a well balanced diet and
I was fit and very active. I felt good, had a great boyfriend, now
husband, and life was good.. How drastically everything would change.
I started to fall
ill. Terribly ill. It began with a migraine that came one day and never
left. Accompanying the migraine was a pain at the base of my skull
and severe muscle tightness, and pain. My muscles in my neck and shoulders
became as hard as rocks and nothing would relax them.
Over the next
six years I would bounce from various types of doctors and specialists
in the allopathic medical community (conventional medicine). No doctor
could help me and my list of symptoms kept getting longer. Added to
the debilitating migraines and muscle tightness, fatigue and pain was
50 lb weight gain, extreme excitability, and nervousness, panic attacks,
shortness of breath, great loss of libido, painful intercourse, fibrocystic
breasts, irregular heart beat, chronic sinus infections, yeast infections,
lowered immune system and more.
My body was falling
apart. I felt like a 20 something trapped in the body of an 80 year
old - but not a healthy 80 year old, a dying 80 year old.
I was taking
all of the drugs the doctors were prescribing to me but none of them
helped me. In fact, they only made my condition worse. I was suicidal
from the pain. I was merely existing, not living. All the while I was
trying to 'pretend' to family and friends that I was 'alright'. I had
to go about daily life. I had to function.
No X-ray, MRI,
CT Scan or blood test could find anything wrong with me. Every test
said 'you are not sick', but I was in torturous pain.
If I had to go
around family and friends I would take Excedrin migraines, make my
appearance, and then come home and drop in exhaustion from the pain
and pretending. Sometimes pretending to feel 'good' was harder than
living in pain. My husband watched me cry every day from the pain.
My muscles were so hard, so sore, he couldn't even touch me to massage
me to try and alleviate some of the pain.
Thank God for
a wonderful man! He stuck by me every step of the way and helped me
with everything. Normal every day chores, like washing the dishes caused
me terrible pain. I would have to the dishes sitting on a stool because
my legs were to sore to hold me up. I could not bend over to tie my
shoes without an intense feeling of strangulation. I would start to
black out every time I bent over. My husband would tie my shoes for
me many days as just tilting my head downward would cause me to feel
as if I was going to pass out.
I also started
to lose feeling in my face and extremities. One day it was so bad my
mother thought I was having a stroke and rushed me to the doctor. After
about 10 minutes in his office the symptoms started to subside. This
loss of feeling would come and go over a period of a couple of years
but my doctor could never find a 'reason' as to why it was happening.
I was eventually
told by a doctor that he thought I had Fibromyalgia and that it was
incurable. He said he could give me drugs to make it a little more
'livable', but that it could not be cured. I turned to the Internet
to do research on Fibromyalgia and I found a story of a women who had
fallen ill after having taken the birth control injections of depo
provera. That made a light bulb go off in my head.
The doctor who
told me he believed I was suffering from Fibromyalgia said: "Shelly
you've been coming in her since January 1997 with these exact same
symptoms. Did you have a car accident or a fall, blow to the head,
anything around that time?" I told him "No", but then it hit me. I
had started the injections of birth control around that time. I found
out when my first shot was by calling the doctors office who had given
them to me years earlier.
My first shot
was in November of 1996. By January of 1997 I was already at my third
doctor with complaints of migraines, pain at the base of my skull and
muscle pain and tightness. All three doctors told me it could not be
the shots making me sick so I never thought of it again. I should have
trusted my instincts, but hindsight is 20/20.
I put my story
women all over the world started to email me, telling me their horror
stories about what happened to them as a result of the birth control
related injections of depo provera.
At that point
I turned my back on conventional medicine. I refused to believe Fibromyalgia
was incurable. I couldn't continue with life if it meant dealing with
this severe pain on a daily basis. I did leave conventional medicine,
but very unfortunately, I jumped out of the frying pan and into the
I decided to try
alternative therapies, but there too I was lost. Nothing was working.
I was lost in the maze of alternative healing. I spent thousands of
dollars but I never got well. I tried homeopathic remedies, whole system
health scan, cranio sacral therapy, deep tissue massage, etc., etc.,
but nothing worked. The pain was still there and on the homeopathic
drops I was once again getting worse.
I told myself
at that point 'You have two choices, 1) get well or 2) die'. Again
I was suicidal from the pain and the frustration that nothing I did
would alleviate the pain.
God answered my
prayers and got me in the hands of a nutritionist named Paula who put
me on a 30 day raw food diet, followed by a two week juice fast. After
those six weeks I went to a vegan diet for months which was 'high raw',
at 80 to 90% raw.
Currently I am
100% raw and feeling MARVELOUS.
I don't know
if I will go back to cooked vegan foods ever, it is too early to say.
I had to make more than just dietary changes - I also had to make strict
I have incorporated
daily exercise, fresh air, with at least a 1/2 hour outdoors daily,
sunshine, rest, both physical and mental, and I had to let go of all
negativity. I had to let go of any anger or hatred that I held towards
others. I also had to remove myself from being around negative people.
You can all probably
relate to this. Do you have anyone in your life that puts you in a
bad mood just because they are always so negative and in bad moods?
If so, you will have to stay away from these negative people. It is
an entire dietary and lifestyle change that must be made.
I had a lot of
'un' learning to do. Everything I had been taught about nutrition and
health was wrong. The doctor's drugs are not safe. The doctor's drugs
do not cure, only our bodies can cure, and they can only do that if
we set for them the proper conditions to do so.
While depo provera
was by far the worst thing that has ever happened to me in life, it
was also the best thing to have ever happened to me too! Had I not
fallen so desperately ill I do not know if I would have ever made a
change to this new lifestyle of natural hygiene (plant-based vegan
diet, raw food, exercise, physical and mental rest, sunshine, pure
water, fresh air).
I believe everything
that happens to us in life happens to us for a specific reason. I wholeheartedly
believe that God intended for me to learn the lessons of natural hygiene,
and that is why I had to take the journey I did.
Whether it was
just to help myself, or whether it was for the purpose of being able
to share my information with others, I'll never know. One thing is
for certain, I'm thankful for it.
more information on Shelly's book Dying To Get Well, the detailed,
step-by-step accounts she took to CURE her so-called, 'incurable' disease,
go to her web site:
For free online support about the raw foods diet, natural hygiene principles,
fasting, etc. please go to her message boards at:
To view Shelly's dramatic before (while sick) and after pictures please
view Shelly's Depo Provera Horror Stories web site please go to:
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